My closest sister Sandra's dad passed away on Sunday. 

Upon hearing it from her message on Monday morning, I rush over after work to the wake to give her the emotional support. 

While I was there I realized none of her friends turned up. Not even those who claims to be her close friends or even her sisters.

When I tried to message some of them, to the greatest rudest shock of my life none of them said they will be going to the wake. 

And their reasons?

"This month is my birthday month and it crashes so I cannot attend the wake."

"There's someone having confinement at my home so I can't attend."

"I got to work."

"I'm not free."

WTF no wonder so many years ago Black Eye Peas sang "Where is the love".

Seriously, WHERE IS THE LOVE?

When you need help, she's there to render help and support. Now that she needs those emotional support the most, all of you just try to avoid at all costs?

Friends like these makes me ask myself if it's me who take friendship too seriously or is them being too heartless.

I don't want to answer this myself. You be my counsellor.

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A.C.

Haven't tried Yoshinoya's food for the longest time ever! Standard really drops a lot but then oh well. Memories are still there?

I can still remember those school days when Yoshinoya was a luxury food. Today it means nothing except a meal. Am I the one who changed or was the food changed me?

I don't know. And I don't want to know.

My whole easter weekend is haywired.

While others enjoyed their long weekend, I was asked to go back to work for half a day on my Saturday morning, making my whole body clock goes haywire as I can't sleep well the night before.

Oh great. It's almost 3am here and I'm wide awake. When the sun rises it's Sunday and once the sun sets again I have to prepare for my work the next day.

I hate those times when I get off days on alternate single days. It's most tiring and stressing for my body. Do you think so?

I used to be an ultimate camwhore.

But I can't remember since when I started taking less photos of myself. And also I seldom take photos with my friends too.

But deep inside me, I still love to take photos. A LOT.

I just don't know why I don't love to look at the camera lens anymore. 

Maybe cos I don't like to show my face in the cyberspace that much anymore? It doesn't seem true either.

Maybe cos as age comes the number of times you press the shutter will be lesser. Just like sex?

Nevertheless, I'm gonna be going into the next era of my blogging next month. New header for sure, yeah!

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A.C.

I am still alive my dears.

It's just me that I'm too lazy to blog.

But I'm sure you all know very well that no matter what I'll still be around isn't it?

I'll always be back here when I need my personal space. No matter if there's anyone reading all these blabberings or not. =)

Time to organise a study area at home for my blogging pleasure. I still prefer to blog using a desktop over netbooks and android apps.

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A.C.

Some say I look younger than my actual age.

Others say I can easily add 5 years to my actual age when I am sans makeup.
Yet I have heard of people commenting that I look like I'm in my late teens (aka 19-22 years old) if I am sans makeup.

You know humans are weird. You only have one face and one age but they can come up with so many numbers for it.

You be the judge.
P/s: I am 27 years young this year. Age isn't something that needs to be hidden IMO.

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A.C.

I am so ill since last Friday.

First was a bad sore throat then start feverish then a high fever then a spinning headache with scary blood-filled phlegm then when fever subside my voice is gone then when my voice is recovering a sore throat strikes with cough and fever again.

ARGH!!! I wanna get well soon can? 

These pills are making me even more sick. 

I blame it all on my boring job. Time to find something more happening in my life.

(In the past when my job is too happening I complain. Now that it's more mundane I also complain. Why I got so much things to complain one???)

Grrr I'm a no-doubt complain queen. I should divert all these energy to creating a new header, blogging more and doing more meaningful things isn't it?

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A.C.

Yes I've said it previously.

I hate @thexangateam for creating a wonderful Xanga app but my iPhone 3GS can't use at all after I've downloaded it. All I see was a white screen and a white screen.

Thankfully after I got a new love (aka my new coral pink Samsung Galaxy SII), I am able to use Xanga's android app.

So, well, I shall give Xanga another chance.

After all, Xanga has been my home for so many years... I really hope it don't disappoint me again. =)

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A.C.

You know the one thing about me is that I hate people who take me for granted or even worst, to break the trust I have for them.

I'm sure I'm well known among people who had known me for years or those who had followed my blog for quite a while.
Unfortunately there's always friends around me who don't cherish my friendship with them but rather to try and abuse my trust, not to mention taking me for granted assuming that I would not give a damn.

I'm a woman, biatch.

I am sensitive just as much like any other woman (or even worst than them).

Stop thinking that I won't know what you're thinking and what you have done. It looks stupid on you, don't you know that?

I said I don't want people to know yet. You kiss and tell to that one person that I dislike immediately. I announced that my new job draws a better salary. You immediately take advantage and try to owe me money.

If that isn't taking advantage and trying to make use of me, I have nothing much to say.

People who break my circle of trust will never get a second chance.

Till date I have never give anyone this second chance; I won't bend my own rules either.

Goodbye ex-friend. You're out of my circle from trust.

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A.C.

I love blogging. I love blogging on the go more than just to sit down there and edit my photos, beautifying them before uploading them one by one online then show it to the public.

Which is why I love my phones very much because I can blog wherever I am, as and when I want to. 

I am not blogging as much as before, because I really don't know why it seems like it's so hard to blog nowadays.

Perhaps it's that worrying that you people out there who's reading this will judge me, or then age is catching up and hence I am not as daring as before anymore.

Or perhaps, it's those cyberbullying in Xanga that upsets me so much that from time to time I feel like leaving here for good.

I don't know, but I still love blogging very much.

Perhaps one day I might just be blogging everyday again like how I used to previously but for the time being, I shall keep to my resolutions and to continue to blog regularly. =)

Hell yeah I am always this random hahahaha.

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A.C.