I finally got home yesterday evening after a long week of work at Sentosa and opened my mailbox.

Awaiting for me is of cos a huge pile of mails and letters waiting for me to open them one by one.

Bills, letters, junk mails, brouchres... And then I see an envelope that says "To: Candy Chew".

To start off with, my surname is not Chew.

Neither does Joeness bears this surname.

And when I turned the letter over I saw who was it from.

My ex-classmate.

I flipped. Honestly I felt ashamed of having such friends. If you can't remember my surname, you can jolly well make do without it instead of penning down a wrong one. That's goes to show how much effort you've put on for our friendship and also how much you wanted to invite me to your wedding.

To me, I have already felt that I'm not part of their group of friends anyway. When we're schooling they have never really been close (otherwise they might have care more when I was being left alone on the semester while all of them switched) and after graduation, all they eyed on are "who's going to the coolest university", "how much are you earning" and "what kind of guy are you dating". (I wonder sometimes how they will flipped if I tell them that I dated both guys and girls... )

Of cos, being a workaholic I skipped a lot of their gatherings, or I should say I am being neglected and hence I decided not to join in their kind of fun. Being a friend I really don't like the feeling of being compared with or any form of competition among us. Friends are supposed to be the one whom you cared for, not as a gauge of how well you perform/how good your studies are.

In short, if it's simply because I am not a University graduate/earning as much as you all do/having an awesome rich boyfriend/husband then you guys wanna judge me differently, I rather not have such friends around.

Because I am no hyprocrite to began with.

♥
A.C.

More to update when I have the time. I'm busy going crazy this week!!!

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A.C.

Seriously, who am I to fool that I have not aged at all throughout all these years?

I'm not even considered young anymore. To the extend that sometimes when I pout I'm worried if people around me might think I'm childish and acting cute.

Not an age to fool around anymore, I need to work hard on it.

Shall update more when I have the time. Yes I know I should have uploaded the Korean BBQ pictures taken last week but the card reader isn't working and I can't upload the pictures into netbook…yet. =(

♥
A.C.

It has been quite a busy hectic week for me. With many new tasks to do and new (and useful) skills to learn, I begin to feel that I have a lot of things to learn within a very short time.

Tight timeline to rush work? A great challenge!

Many wouldn't have think that way and call me crazy. My ex colleagues called me a sicko on facebook because of my workaholic but positive attitude. Even my most understanding mum don't understand sometimes why I would sacrifice my personal time for work.

Well, I do have my work-life balance time too.

At times, I'll meet up with my lovely friends for dinner. Just this Wednesday we went to this Korean BBQ restaurant to have a great BBQ- ing session plus chit chats and gossips. =P

As I'm updating this on my phone I'll post the rest of the pictures this weekend. Shall make do with this picture I took with my friend Yunru for the time being!

♥
A.C.

With a heavy heart, I dyed my hair from the previous faded medium ash brown to a very dark ash yesterday.

No joke, I haven't had dark hair for more than 2 years. I bleached my hair more than 5 times and coloured then almost every month.

But I guess it's about time to give my hair a rest from all these chemicals.

I'm still trying hard to get used with such dark hair. Afterall, it feels so weird now looking at the mirror and my face is pale like a hungry vampire.

♥
A.C.

P/s: I never thought I would have the courage to wear hot pink lips with matching nails. Turns out that it really looks good, me likes!

Okie so I went to the gym for my combat just now and I did a weigh in.

62.5kg!

Till date I've lost 3.5kg! It's almost halfway to my target weight lost amount already!

Well losing weight may be good, but my skin have become drier because I'm slightly dehydrated now. =(

My facial therapist this afternoon reminded me to eat more fruits because my skin is so dry that it's very obvious on my face and my legs. ='(

Bleahz, I really didn't eat much fruits ever since I'm staying alone many years back. Bad bad bad…

I shall be good and remember to eat more fruits from now on. ^_^

In the meantime I'm not gonna stop here. I still have about 1.5 months to go and 4.5kg to lose. Time to increase my gym days! Going merely once or twice a week is really not enough. I have to build back that momentum of gym more than 3 times a week. Wish me luck!

♥
A.C.

I can't believe I've said that but it's true. 

I had the best Monday ever this week. From lunch to dinner I was eating great Asian food. 

Lunch was with my boss and big boss to this place called Coriander Leaf at Clarke Quay.

That lady in picture is my big boss by the way, she's gorgeous! 

We had 2 different samplers (Moroccan and Mediterranean) and a lamb kebab.

The Moroccan sampler... Which I personally feel that there's a lot of spices and people who love their foods with a heavy taste would appreciate it.

The Mediterranean sampler... I personally likes this better. The dips are awesome!

It comes with sesame naan by the way, and I tell you, this sampler really is a must try.

I forgot to take pictures of the lamb kebab but, I've never loved lamb that much like before. (Even the thought of that now makes me drool.. )

In the evening, I meet up with BBF for dinner at this tiny Korean restaurant at Circular Road. 

BFF ordered too much food AS USUAL and this time we decided to call Feli to come down immediately to join us before both of us have our stomach overfilled.

Chicken bibimbap (or is it pork? I don't remember)

It taste so good after adding in the chili pepper paste and mixed well! Yum yumz...

Then BBF also ordered a korean steamboat for 2.. Which has pork in this I think.

BBF has this habit of ordering too much food. Just this steamboat for 2 actually is way more than enough for both of us cos we're not exactly that BIG eater (plus the small size dishes are actually more than enough to fill up half of our stomachs).

And if you think that's all that he had ordered, you're so wrong.

He ordered a plate of rice cakes too! (See the amount of food he initially expects me and him to finish?)

Luckily Feli is able to join us this time round and helped to finish some of the food otherwise we're sure to waste again.

And just in case you might be wondering too... Both BBF and I really don't have the big eater look too. 

See how skinny we are in our reflections??? Hahaha!

Okie no joke but I really did lose some weight recently and so does BBF. I'm still in the midst of trying to lose some more hopefully (which in my case I think shouldn't be a problem?) and BBF had stopped his weight loss program. It seems that our monthly binge doesn't affect our weight loss at all isn't it?

♥
A.C.

I seldom get to wear heels or wedges when I was back in the
previous companies I worked in because, well, one is a call center (so
flats or even slippers are just fine) and the other is basically
wanting me to work like a man (carry cartons, climb up and down the
stools, pack this and arrange that) so pants and flats are always a
better choice. Not to mention people there DON'T DRESS UP to work, so
if I do they'll find me a sore thumb.

But with my current company, image is one big factor here. The way we
dress to work is also a sign of how much we love our job, our company
and our brand. (I ain't joking about this.)

So of cos, I started wearing heels. Having not wearing heels to work
for more than 3 years, I nearly died when I first started work. Almost
cursing and swearing deep inside me for wanting to take up such a
challenge to work in a big and fast pace company in which image of
staffs is a big factor too.

Feli and Sandra both can't stop laughing at me everyday for my
swearing of aching feet. It was so bad that I even had to buy flats
after work during the first week to change into otherwise I couldn't
walk at all.

Feli can vouch for me because she was there when I bought this pair of
G's. I totally couldn't walk anymore and had to resort to buying this
pair to change into.

Less than a month after, I am now feeling so weird without heels.
Ironic I know, I can't help but to laugh at myself too. I wore this
pair of G's today because it matches my midi dress but I feel so weird
walking around because I'm not having any heights. Deep in my heart (I
really thought of this) I almost wanted to go to the nearest shoe
store and get myself a pair of heels or wedges that match my dress
during lunch. (But I went lunch with my boss and other colleagues so
this idea is called off LOLs.)

This is how much a good company can make the meanie evolve into a
lady. Who knows, I might be a vamp instead? LOLs.

♥
A.C.

One look at my blog now and you'll know I've already changed the designs.

Something cutesy, but not exactly all sweet. 

To be honest I have never ever had any blog layout that's in pink before. Neither have I tried any cutesy sweetie style. Then again, no harm trying out once to see if I really like it or not. (I can always change it as and when I like isn't it?)

Blog change is minor. Evolution is major.

I really love how I am changing now. Even though it means that I'm gonna be spending money and throwing away my old love. Even though it means that I might not be meeting some of my friends during evenings but to go to the gym for a good work out instead. All these will pay off well. Because I know, this is the kind of life I want to lead.

Not some "expensive" one, not an "overworked, underpaid" one. No more being shouted at or *almost* being punched by some gay who refused to admit he's one. No more being used by some selfish people who never spare a thought for me nor my feelings. No more being forced to cancel my gym sessions or meetup with friends last minute because of ugly people who makes me a sacrifice for their work-life balance just because I am not a mother yet. No more being stuck at the same spot doing all the work for everyone but credits are given to all the others. No more of that irritating feeling of being used and dispensable. This is my life and I am the decision maker of how it's gonna be like, no regrets.

I am a free-spirited lollipop that no one is allowed to squeeze my talents dry. Judge me all you want but I love how I'm shaping my life now.

♥
A.C.

My mum found a picture of me with my classmate Nat during our
graduation prom 6.5 years ago. I posted this in my facebook and
apparently, most of my friends now wouldn't believe what they see
because, wells, I am not as skinny as I was in the picture anymore.

And honestly I was kinda upset in the past when people simply call me
fat and don't trust my words when I say I really used to be skinny (or
slim at least). Now I have this picture to proof. =)

Which then brings about evil friends saying that it's all the past and
I'm fat and ugly now.

Uh-huh, you can't please everyone sweetie. I know this very well.

I am happy with how I am now even though I wish to continue to shed a
few more pounds. I visit the gym to keep myself sane and at the same
time maintain a healthy weight. I eat a balanced diet so that even
though I'm no more a freaking skinny, I'm sexy-healthy with my toned
body.

Learn these well bitches.

♥
A.C.