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July 10, 2010

O-u-c-h

I'm not trying to show you SAW or anything near to that.

Recently there's alot of things happening that's giving me the ouch factor.

Power point sockets dropped in the middle of the night and hit straight on my head, new shoes that's freaking comfortable when you try but cuts and bruises you after buying, menstrual cramps and chest pain from the coughing infected by my colleague.

But none of these is as ouch as this:
A bunch of hyprocrites and shit throwers.

Let's just say this, shit work is everywhere.

But shit becomes double when you're supposed to be working in pairs and your partner decides to push her pile of workload to you.

I told this to my friend Feli before, that I'm someone who's working to do a shitty job.

If my job is to clear my shit, I'll "eat" those work with pride and clear them all.

BUT if there's shit pushers who simply dump their workload onto me, I'm sorry but I won't do it.

Look, I don't care if you'll read this or not, but don't you think it's very irresponsible of your actions to simply don't care and push everything to me, when this job scope is 30% of mine but 100% of yours?

Don't tell me things like you've already said you want to leave more than a month ago, or you really don't know, or you already prepared your resignation letter. You said you'll not leave me with shit, you said you'll stay in office until the new person is here and YOU WILL MENTOR HER UNTIL SHE'S ABLE TO COPE.

Yet you're denying all these right now. Look at your attitude and tell me how am I not pissed.

Wells, shitty people are everywhere. I've learnt this the hard way and I'm well aware of that.

I'm just kinda upset with this person's change of attitude which results in me having to sacrifice my evenings, my weekends and my own life to cover her portion of workload.

Then again, she's not the only one who's upsetting me.

Do I say I'm upset with other people too?

We're part of a team and we should all work together like a small family.

But instead, you both treat me like an outsider and could even say right straight to me that I'm not part of the team.

I have no intention of over-taking what you people are doing right now. Yes I want career advancement but I also know where I'm standing right now. You people don't have to remind me and degrade me.

Sigh, scheming people.

Then again, all woman are scheming in some ways. I am one myself in certain ways and I don't deny this.

I just totally can't stand those people who are not keen to work, yet still insist to hold on to the job for no reason.

You people please pray hard because one day, I'll not only take over your position, I'll OVERTAKE your abilities in the job.

And I meant what I say. You've been warned.

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

June 26, 2010

Issues with Short Guys

I am 168cm or 5' 6" so you call it.

To me, I feel that I'm average because among my family members, I have female adults as tall as 183cm (6' 1") and as short as 150cm (5').

I have no issues with my height at all, but I have that major issues with guys who are below mine.

To be honest, 95% of the time I'm wearing flats so as not to be too "outstanding" with my height.

Yet these shorties with sky-high ego just love to irritate me without fail.

I've asked guy friends who are of my height or shorter if they do feel inferior towards girls that are taller, the answer is a mixture of yes and no.

Half of them said yes, while the other half said they felt intimidated - and hence they LOVE to see those girls to be dominated or bullied by them.

Note: It's LOVE not LIKE. See how much they favours this!

And honestly, my issues is only with that particular egoistic half.

Have you ever notice tall ladies, among the early morning rush it's always the short guys who gave you those irritating stares at your height?

Or at work, it's always those shorties who are giving you a hard time?

I don't know why these short guys must do all these kinda nonsense. To make themselves feel better because of their height?

Or is this an eastern culture that the taller you are the more dominative you'll be and hence those short guys are "worried" that we (girls who are taller) will dominate them and hence the bad treatment?

I find these shorties irritating and self-insulting.

All girls will agree with me that guys, be they short or tall, end of the day it's their character that determines if we wanna be nice to them or to be a bitchy slut towards them.

I bet you egoistic short guys will have your blood boil after reading this, but I don't care.

Be nice to tall ladies can?

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

June 20, 2010

Stop Dreaming in Fairy Tales

I'm kinda emo recently so let me rant a bit pretty please?

It's 10.30pm and I'm hungry.
Only ate a meal today and it's a plate of chicken rice.
Before that, I only had a chicken pie.

I'm becoming chicky.

This kinda timing I can't really eat anything anymore, since I'm gonna be in dreamland very soon.

And that reminds me that this is reality. This is life.

I don't understand why people must live in their own fairytales.

Twilight saga? In reality, The Girl married the Werewolf and the the Vampire is still single.

Valentine's Day? If you marry your best friend you'll only keep asking yourself why you do so in the future.

Happily ever after? What I see is only 2 person arguing over a 3rd - the baby.

I don't believe in fairytales.

Sorry if this sentence hurts anyone, but that's the cold hard truth.

In the past I created a fairytale to numb myself.
I thought things will go the way I want to.

But, accidents and mishaps happened.
I lost the love and I tried to move on.

I hold on and continue my life in pain.
And thought that the one person whom trusted me understands that.

Until after 10 years I realise,
What seems is the truth is just a lie.

It hurts, more badly than before I guess.
Which is why I still feel the wound.

But I'm very glad I'm finally awake.
I'm totally clean and out of the fairytale.

I don't know why I'm digging out my painful past and blog about it again. This kinda hurts, but I rather rant it out than to keep it inside and haunt me time and time each moment when I feel emo. At least, I can say I feel better now.

But I don't know when will this haunt me again. I'm not sure. And I don't want to know.

Sighz.. Another sleepless night again... Probably just nice to watch a World Cup match.. Brazil vs Ivory Coast?

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

June 15, 2010

I. IS. STRESSED.

P/s: I bet you Meanie haters are sneering when you see the heading. Go ahead! I'm more than happy to know that you losers are still so "concerned" about me and my status. Why, wanna slam me with nonsenses behind my back just like how you people twisted the fact about the truth? I'm delighted to tell you losers that I am living my life infinity times more fruitful and beter than you are, LOSERS!

Yes I am indeed. I is stressed.

As much as I love my new job I have to admit that there's a lot of things to do and I have work load that is pilling up every single day, snowballing as the day passes.

I keep blaming myself for not able to finish them but the actual fact is, I'm too perfectionist to be true and there IS indeed more and more things to be done at a shorter and tighter timeline.

See, now I'm so stressed that even though I'm very tired, I can't sleep. (And it's already 2.40am by the way. )

Insomnia = signs of overstressed

Job may plays a part in my overstressed current self, there's also a lot of other factors that's contributing to my stress levels.

Renovation for my new house, friends who are not understanding enough to know that I'm not longer the slacker in that ^%$*()_)+ environment and procrastinate non stop about me neglecting them and not meeting them, family members who are nothing but total useless bums who only knows how to play Maple Story (no offense to any Maple lovers, but there should be a limit in playing. Not to the extend of EVERY SINGLE DAY, EVERY SINGLE MOMENT and leave all other errands and stuffs to others.), husband Joeness who is so engrossed in World Cup that when I remembered something and wanna tell him, he claims that I'm talking too much. *whateverz*

And you who left a dark and painful spot in me. I tried very hard to bury myself in work to break free of thinking about it but still, I feel the pain.

NNNOOOONNNNNOOOOO NNNNNOOOOOO!!!

I need to break free of this FOR GOOD.

Because if this goes on my Project Minus 5 will fail.

I can't lose any weight when I'm too stressed up because I can't sleep.

And as a result, I might eat more or otherwise I'll have water retension.

I don't want this to happen. That just sounds too depressing to me right now.

I don't care, it's set.

I'm gonna do something about it.

I need stress management like RIGHT NOW. =)

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

June 13, 2010

5 Days Every Week

I haven't been blogging recently not because I didn't want to blog or no ideas to, but is because there's many a time I'm blogging halfway and doze off, and it's quite pointless to alter and publish the post anymore and hence it became an unpublished draft. =(

Work wise is still tiring but manageable.
It's been a long time since I get to leave the office before sunset, and most of the time I'll be totally knock out after work. I sometimes wonder if it's me being slow and unable to catch up with the pace, or is there really too much workload that I can't handle, resulting in the long working hours. Then again, I'm trying to be positive about myself and work right now. 3 weeks at a new job is still not totally enough to judge if I'm suitable for it or not yet. Wait till 3 months then decide.

Despite the hectic workload, I'll still drag myself to the gym if I manage to end work before 7pm.

Life wise, everything is still as per normal. I still have to put up with a bunch of useless becoming more useless bummers and bastards, a whole houseful of them to be exact.
Sometimes I wonder why people can be at that extreme. I'm making sure my kids don't stay too near with these kinda "relatives" just in case they become like them.

Weight wise, I haven't really see a big drop in my weight =( probably because I didn't really make any drastic changes to my eating habit. I'm still going to Macdonalds and KFC (I love their cola glasses and soccer player bottles!) and I still can't keep to 2 gym days during working days yet =( nevertheless I'm not gonna be giving myself any stress on this. Stress will only hinder weight loss, not helping it!

I'm still happy with the 1kg weight loss after 2 weeks =)

And per what my title is saying, I'll be disappeared 5 days every week due to work and active in blogging and bitching during the weekends. Then again if there's anything I really wanna blog it out I'll still blog during the weekdays since it's quite convenient for me to blog using my iPhone.

More updates next time~

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

June 6, 2010

Project Minus 5 - Stress

P/s: I love that pink glowy light on my head!

This is suppose to be a ramblings entry but then I decided that instead I shall talk about how stress is related to my weight gain.

I'm pretty sure, to most people, stress is a bad thing.

Just like most people I hate to be too stressed up.

Why?

Because whenever I'm stressed, no matter how much time and effort I put in to take care of my weight it'll still go up.

Not sure if anyone else does face the same problem as me, but whenever I'm stressed, I tend to skip a meal or two or sometimes, overeat without knowing.

And when this happens, I'll either be down with gastrics (if I skipped to many a meal) or stomach flu (if I over ate).

Either ways, the outcome will still be the same - I'll gain weight.

So, part of my Project Minus 5 (initally I wanted to call in PM5 for short, but it really looks like PMS which Joeness also agree hence no shortform for this!) is to make sure I keep my stress levels low.

And my best way to blast off stress? Gym!

And hence I'm gonna cut less the number of times I'm pigging out with my friends, the number of buffets and steamboats and also not to forget, the portions of food I'm eating in the evenings.

Because most of my evenings, I'm gonna make sure I shove my heavy butt to the gym and not straight home or pig out with friends!

And so, if you're planning or intending to slim down, don't ever stress yourself k?

Even though I have to admit that my current workload is much more stressed than my previous job, I must confess that the feeling of satisfaction is there and it somehow lessen the stress load especially towards the end of the day when everything is done. I love that kind of feeling!

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

June 3, 2010

Project Minus 5 - Back to Gym

So as promised it's Thursday~! And hence I went to the gym for combat. (And skipped watching my WWE NXT. I'm utterly depressed about it already so don't talk about it.)

It's already 1.48am and I'm still not sleeping! Actually I'm already lying on my bed and doing this quick update before I doze off. My body feels so soft now because of the post effect of exercising.

I truly love this feeling. =)
My reason why I love exercising. You'll feel so relaxed that you sleep more soundly.

Can't wait for next gym day~!!!

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.
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June 2, 2010

Project Minus 5 - Ep 1

The very first thing that should go into your stomach everyday

Is plain water.

I'M NOT KIDDING!

Drinking plain water, especially warm ones helps to flush the toxins out from your body that was expelled by your hardworking organs while you're sleeping.

On top of that, water helps to wash off any taste in your mouth and hence you'll be able to taste your breakfast better and less seasoning is needed.

My daily routine in the morning: drink a glass of warm water (sometimes even up to 500ml depending on my body conditions), brush teeth and wash face.

I'll usually find that by the time I finish brushing my teeth I need to urinate already.

That's because the waste from my body is being flush out by the warm water that I drank!

Anyways I'm skipping gym until this thursday due to time of the month. But I'll not slack anymore after that! Time of the month is the only time I can tell myself to rest and skip gym (but to eat less sugary and oily stuffs).

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

May 30, 2010

Project Minus 5

I've been wanting to start on something like this but due to the starting of a new job and time is needed to orientate myself so it's been dragging till now.

Those who had been following my blog since my nickname was Autumn_Candy would have known how much slimmer I was then.

With age catching up plus working stress plus less workouts, I'm expanding sideways faster than I myself can imagine.

Plus the medications that I've taken previously actually made my body having water retention and swells up a lot and somehow it doesn't go down even after I stopped the medication.

Since now I'm more or less adapted to the new office environment and I've stopped my medications, I think it's time for me to start my Project Minus 5.

What does Project Minus 5 means?

"Generally, with proper diet and exercise, a person can lose around 1-2kg per week.
So within a month, a person can expect around 4-6kg lost, depending on individuals."
So based on this theory, I'm giving myself a month's time to lose 5kg.

A lot of people may be asking, proper diet and exercise?

How proper is proper?

First thing first: I will never starve myself for the sake of slimming!

I'm only cutting down on my coffee intake and suppers and making my gym a regular routine.

Coffee? Isn't caffine something that helps to lose weight?

Because each time I drink a cup of coffee the sugar content is way more than enough for me to be steps closer to diabetes, even though I'm not the one adding those sugar (most of the time the sugar are added by the person making it and they tend to add A LOT, I don't know why).

Not to forget the creamer which is high in fat content.

Suppers wise, it's quite obvious for the reason. No explanation needed.

Secondly, my gym rountine.

It's becoming more and more irregular because of myself giving tons of excuses to skip gym.

Bad. Bad. Bad.

You know when I hit the gym more often my complexion and hair actually becomes healthier because I'll remember to apply lotions and hair serum as compare to nights when I'm home straight without gym.

Not only that I tend to sleep better with exercises too. And also to wake up earlier the next day.

So my conclusion? I'm gonna be placing my gym bag in the office.
Then I have no excuses not to go gym after work (which is one of my excuses when I wanna hit the gym but my barangs are at home).

Each week I must have at least 3 days visiting the gym.
Be it 2 weekdays after work and 1 weekend or 3 weekdays after work.

No excuse.

I'm not a fan of visiting gyms on Saturdays because I'm kinda used to gym on Sundays but because Vehn is no longer teaching the Sunday class so I kinda slack more now. VEHN! CAN YOU PLEASE COME BACK TO FF INSTEAD OF ZUMBA-ING AND JAMMING AT CALI?? PRETTY PLEASE??

And that's my another problem - I tend to go for classes with instructors that I'm comfortable with.

So I'm gonna force myself to be "more ok" with any instructors rather than "more ok" with my looks.
Sounds good? Good.

And since my reason for slacking previously is also to give my face the flesh to stop myself with that sunken face look, I shall cut down on my cardio but to emphasize on my weights training more too.

I shall start my Project Minus 5 with effect from 1st June, that's tomorrow.

Wish me luck!

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.

May 29, 2010

Virgin Experience On Public

PHOTOS OVERLOADED! I HAVEN'T POST PHOTOS FOR QUITE A WHILE SO PHOTOS AND PHOTOS FOR THIS ENTRY~!

Side note: With regards to my previous entry, OK FINE I GIVE IN! Don't ask me for more details anymore okie?

This weekend is suppose to be great because it's a long long long one.
Instead of 2 I got 3 rest days *woohoo* but last minute it becomes a 2.5 rest days.

I was informed in a day's advance that I'll be doing the make up demostration for the Panasonic Lumix event on 28th May.

If you had been noticing my facebook updates you'll have seen the photos of the big BIG stage that I posted on my wall. It's damn big can?

Anyways enough of ramblings, photos!

I was so nervous of the event that I took so long to prepare myself! End up I have to take a cab to Far East...

That day was suppose to be a meetup with my bitches so we end up meeting for brunch at HK Cafe.

Yanny (far right) joined us because she's assisting me for the make up demostration! Love her to bits for assisting me (and Feli to be my model)!

And for once... Nobody said me and Dada looked alike! You people wanna know why?

Because I was full of make up and Dada wasn't! See the power of make up on woman... Hmmz..

Then was the make up demo. I was so nervous that at some point, my hands are shaking! *shakes head* I am so disappointed with myself even though Kel (Feli's boyfriend) kept telling me that I've done well with the speech and such. But being a perfectionist I still can't forgive myself for the shaky hands.

Meanie Me shall not allow such things from happening again!

Me, Yanny and Feli after the event

I think it's time for me to do something about my size... I'm hating it!

Joeness came after the event (actually he wanted to come see me on stage but he was caught in a jam and by the time he reached my demo has ended ) and we went off for his lunch while I enjoyed a cup of floral tea.

After that, we decided to catch a movie.

Prince of Persia! Me with the CM Punk lookalike.

In case you do not know who the hell is CM Punk... Here's a picture of him before he was shaved...

His bald head is a long story so I shall not touch on that. But this Prince of Persia actor Jake Gyllenhaal does look like CM Punk sans tattoo isn't it?

A closer shot of me with the poster...

Toopid Joeness could have asked me to stand closer but he didn't. That's why I call him a photography noob!

The movie is AWESOME! I'm so having a crush on Jake Gyllenhaal now (in fact I've changed my laptop's wallpaper to be him) and in the show, I'm so inspired by one of the looks of Princess Tamina! I'm gonna be doing a tutorial of that look soon...

After the movie, Joeness brings me to eat something good...

Laksa at Quality Hotel!

The pricing here is cheap! $2.80++ for a bowl of laksa and it's from a hotel and not hawker! How's that?

We camwhored while waiting for our laksa.

Obviously from the shadow in the pictures can tell who's the one taking the photos!

Laksa is served!

OMG I forgot to ask them to remove the chilli. Neverminds...

I'm so glad this laksa comes with a free drink! How good is that for $2.80++?

Qing Chow drink that comes free with the laksa

Hmmz... Let the Meanie try the laksa soup...

FANTASTIC! The authentic taste of laksa is there!

But there's 2 turnoffs...

1. There's no clams and only 1 pathetic prawn

2. Instead of using normal eggs they used quail eggs (Ade and Jason would have love this!)

Other than that, I have no complains for this delicious laksa.

See how happy Joeness is slurping on his bowl of laksa?

Yeah I finished mine!!!

Happy Joeness because he knew he had make me happy with a bowl of laksa!

When the bill came guess how much in total we've paid??

FREAKING $6.60!!! When was the last time we both ate nice food and cost us less than $10?
(I don't recall anytime at all to be exact!)

Little wonder why Joeness is so happy. Cheap, good food plus a satisfied stomach for both of us. LOLs.

Okies to end off this entry, make a guess...

Which finger am I using to point on Joeness cap?

P/s: I am not paid to blog about the food at Quality Hotel. The mention is solely because I am satisfied with the price and taste of the food and hence the blog entry to mention about them.

You know you hate me,

XOXO

A.C.